Starting

Funny, I think, as I begin to write this assignment. I really had a hard time starting.  I avoided sitting down, I ran a blank on thoughts and I am trying to figure out a way to not have write this at all.  

It is not apathy that stands in my way nor motivation or desire and as much as I hate to admit it, time is not my enemy, as I can always find some. The answer lies with judgment. 

Judgment is my final answer. Over these past few High School years, I have studied, researched, wrote, drawn, sketched, sang, played, ran, swung, and at the end of it all, it came down to a grade or some form of critique.  I must confess, I need a break.  I love doing all of the many things that I do, academics, tutoring, sports, but I want to do them for me.  I want to learn for the sake of learning and not to quest the “A” for college.  I want to do my art for me; for the shear pleasure of writing funny, satirical material, I want to experiment with forms of writing, not focusing on grammar.  I know, however, this cannot be.

It is hard to begin, knowing that I want to experiment but if my experimenting does not work, I fail.  When I study what interests me but is not on the exam, I will fail.  When I try out my new serve and it will not be an ace, I fail.  Why begin knowing that it may not work out the way I want.  The answer is simple; optimism. 

For every success there is a failure and for every failure there is a lesson. I have learned well to many lessons during my time at Herricks.  I will leave a much better person than when I began.  Knowing that I survived a rigorous environment, replete with lessons, makes me a stronger person.  This knowledge allows me to push through not only this assignment but also all others that will be thrown at me.

Procrastination, you say, introspection I say.  The work all gets done, sometimes a little close to a deadline, but maybe thinking a bit more before tackling an assignment builds more character, or not. With a little ice cream, Adventure Time, Smash Bros. and a dose of reality, anything is possible.